Last night I wished you might die
from my heart’s overwhelming love
watching you suffer daily
I wonder why you really stay alive
At what point do we let go?
Do you stay alive for any part of your dream?
If not, death may be the better pathway
Do not stay alive for me
I know I am in an endless courtship with Life
Stay alive for you.
Untangle your worth from your children
unbind us as slaves in the broken home
I have not birthed children.
I know you wanted a daughter from me.
I may have wanted that.
That may have been a good thing.
But I was given specific instructions
“The wound stops here”
I refuse the inheritance of disappointment
I shatter the lens you have been looking through
casting fractals of doubt to the fray
Do you see the rainbow cosmology now?
Everything rises from Love
I cannot save you by feeling your pain
And there is nothing to save
We are being stewed to perfection
inside the cauldron of Original Medicine
Do you know you are an angel on a mission?
Grow big Mother.
Loud and unapologetic.
You are so afraid your Voice
will alienate you from your children’s lives
and vanquish your own.
In your silence
you are already dead
So why not try?